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hello, we meet againnn! mau cerita cerita tertunda liburan singkat ke jogja cyn hahaha, telat banget tho. jadi ini tadinya gue cuma mau berduaan erw aja, dalam rangka cooling down, a getaway, hanimun penganten tua, sama berburu tegel kunci. hohoho...  pas banget kita akan bareng sama arsitek kita (yang temen masa kecilnya erw). tapi lalu - seperti biasa - ibu bapak gue yang kayanya ari ari nya dipendem di jokja, pingin ikut dan mereka insist lewat jalan darat sambil napak tilas (jajanan) sepanjang jalan. yauwis, berempat kita! short trip banget juga, jalan jumat, minggu pulang. nah kamis pagi, baru sadar kalo Ar libur hari jumat, karna abis bagi rapot. wadohhh, galau sejadi-jadinya hahaha. setelah rundang runding pusing, ahirnya kita bawa deh anak anak. masalahnya bukan apa apa, i personally designated this trip for my own getaway, akukan abis mental breakdown ya, i need some down time. nah kalo bawa anak anak. yaaa seru sih, tapiii... kagak ist...

i vaguely remembered that i've felt this way before, devastated, broken into pieces without knowing clearly why. such a strange feeling... at the end, i blame it on hormones hahaha, sorry ya mon, kamu kena getah terus, but really... maybe it's the never-ending pressure i keep to myself, maybe i'm simply overloaded with the daily tasks, i can't even enjoy little things anymore, all i know, it was so hard to keep my happy bubble floating lately. they always pop. sedih. all i know, i wasn't being happy, nor keeping my positivism, for days, i was blatantly being a miserable little ball of dark cloud, all grumpy, mara mara terus, ngga sabaran... things even nu grinti can't fix. and i have to say: rasanya gak enak banget. constantly being in a rush, worrying, panicking, being negative, ngga tenang. and driving everyone else around me crazy - obviously erw *maaf ya sayang* so i decided that i had to fix myself, i started spending some time having good ...

a 6 yo soul is probably one of the most delicate one in a child's lifetime, peralihan dari bayi besar ke anak, peralihan dari sekolah hore horean (di TK), ke SD. sebenernya sekaligus pembuktian si, ajaran-ajaran kita sejak dia balita, berhasil nggak. parameternya sih sederhana aja, kalo kira kira 'ke iseng an' si bocah masih bisa ditolerir oleh umum, perilaku nya masih acceptable di ranah umum, i'd say the parents have nailed it. buat ibuknya, yang paling deg deg ser adalah 'nemenin' masa masa ini, prepping him a whole lot of things he'll be dealing with in the future. karna gue percaya, apapun yang terjadi di fase ini, adalah pintu untuk refleksi pribadi Ar kedepannya. so a couple of weeks ago, there were this. Ar brought home 2 books, and all excited about it. pagi pagi begitu bangun tidur, langsung minta bacain, berulang ulang. hadehhh, begitu melek mami langsung suru bacain, udah gitu karna dia belum ngerti ngerti amat basa inggris, jadi bac...

end of august!!! birthday month hehehe, alhamdulilah di sisa usia ini, masih bisa berkarya, masih sehat, terpenting masih bisa menikmati hidup, manis manisnya, pait paitnya hahaha. and my young man, mas Ar. it's his 6th birthday!!! alhamdulilahhh i'm so happy that i get the chance to watch you grow, jadi anak laki laki kecil yang antusias, positif, cerdas, dan selalu bisa menghargai hal hal kecil dalam hidup kamu. happy birthday baby, you are my pride and my joy, my reason to live. thank you for arriving in my life, making me a mother and a wiser person. *kayanya mimut akan terus cium cium terusss sampe kamu kumisan* *pose duluuu!* and to me, happy 30th bday!!! hahaha, for a couple of time tentu sajah, because i've passed my real 30th birthday some time ago. aaanyway, ih tuwir yah hohoho. tapi gak apa apa. let's embrace and age gracefully. there are reasons why i stated to be 30 (again) hahaha, kemaren kemaren sih karna rasanya gue kok belom siap ...

tadinya sih gak mau posting tentang ini... karna... yahhh, kesannya mengeluh banget sih, udah dikasih asisten untuk bantu, masih ngeluh juga. TAPI BOHONG hahaha! akukan banci curhat and this blog is exactly what i need hahaha. jadiii, salam jumpa dalam episod 1365 pembaca yang budiman! dari stengah taun lalu, nanny nya anak anak balik lagi ke kita, sis ind namanya, dulu pernah ikut gue pas masih di bintaro, arka masih 2 taun, kinan masi bayi lucu imut imut jarang drama hahaha. nah beberapa taun terpontang panting dari 1 rumah ke rumah lain, sis ind ahirnya minta balik, oh CLBK ada juga yah di genre ini hahaha. yauwis lah, gue terima. udah kenal juga sama anak anak & kinerja nya juga bagus. nah sebelum lebaran kemaren, sis ind emang udah woro woro dia mau nikah, calonnya juga gue kenal kok, orang tukang bangunan langganan nyokap hahaha, nah terus gue tanya dong... nyonyah: jadi kamu gimana maunya? sis ind: yaaa, ini pulang dulu lebaran, terus nanti balik lagi. n...

ouyeaaa baby, we're backkk! mba baru : check masuk TK : check masuk SD : check new office space : check buat penggemar hidup rutin seperti saya, berat yaaa, transisi ini cukup berattt, yaaayayaya... tapi terus what does ngeluh do? nothing. exactly. yaudah mari kita kemon. kids are happy in their new environment, Kin was having difficult time on the first day, awalnya sih mulus banget, abis drop in dia ke kelas, gue halal bi halal sama ibu ibu, ehhh, pas gue balik badan, there it was, teary poni face. went on for 2 straight hours. karnaaa... mungkin dia liat "kok ibu lain masi ada disini, ibu gue pergi?" zzz... but the rest of the days was fine, udah gue drop in bahkan di gerbang sekolah hahaha, kan bareng Ar, dan insya allah aman sampe kelas lah kalo di drop disitu. and Ar? si anak SD, was asking about his homework on the first day hahaha, talking about ambitious yaaa dududu... anak sapa inihhh, karna beda jam pulang, dna kasian kalo Kin suru nunggu A...

hahaha, mumpung mau liburan cyin, PAS NANNYLESS KANNN? hahaha, event lebaran ini emang selalu membuat jidat berkerut yes buk ibuk? but worry not, i've come to an equation, that the older are the kids, the more time mommy has to fix her make up on lebaran day, so those with babies and toddlers, heads up high woman!!! you're going to nail this (year's bad time), and you'll survive the storm on upcoming years. now, this post works best on children age 3 yo and above, pokonya pas mau babay babyhood deh knapa? simply karena mereka udah bisa diajak ngobrol, bisa diskusi, bisa bantu cari solusi masalah. terutama masalah yang menyebabkan mama emosiii, mama kepingin marahhh, sabarnya habisss! ok, firstly, a little bit of milestone of Ar is 6-- and Kin is 4+. Ar is 6-- yo hahaha, i'm sorry i'm too lazy to put up 6 yo, xx mo, xx day, xx hr, xx min, xx sec, he's turning 6 next month uhuwww! ibuknya emotional hahaha, and when i say emotional, i mean it, ...